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Friday, 27 January 2012

Don't read this post, I just needed to write it. Move along.

Okay first off let me start by saying this post is reflective of a fleeting moment.  I'm pms'ing-ish and haven't had enough sleep and my kids are making me crazy and...and...and....and....and.  So here goes....

WHY??!!!  Don't get me wrong, I'm grateful for lots and lots of things....my health, my kids health, my amazing husband, my beautiful house overlooking the river, my great family, my business being so busy, my stylists and friends and red wine and coffee.  But do you ever feel like "hey.  I work really mother fucking hard.  Like, stupid hard.  Like, I give my soul to my job day in and day out and I work hard.  And where's my ________?" (enter your own longing there, make it material and expensive....ie Lexus, iPhone, vacation, FLUEVOGS...get the idea?).  I am myself at fifteen this morning whining about the injustice of it all.  I'm swearing and stomping my feet and pouting.  I just feel like sometimes I sacrifice a lot to work as much and as hard as I do....alot of family time and time with my husband....because I have a business to run and have worked this hard for this long.  NEVERMIND the amount of time and effort my husband puts in!!  And he's not even on payroll and has his own insane day job.  So where's my indulgences?????  We've never even had a honeymoon, never had a holiday, never gone anywhere......we owe and owe and owe and never can get ahead.  And it's not fair.  So what's the answer?  Sell everything and move into a trailer in Greenwood is what Barry says....I'm not convinced.  I just want to be able to splurge every once in a while because I feel like we're worth it.  And when my dream pair of Fluevogs is finally on sale for 50% and I've lusted after them for seriously years, I want to be able to buy them.

There, I'm done.  I don't feel any better yet and plan on doing this all day.  Tomorrow, we'll see.  Maybe this is my splurge?  One full day of pity party for something so stupid and material when people are starving all over the world and we live in the most beautiful place on earth.  And I have nothing to pout about.  I know people suffering, and dealing with major injustices right now and I'm whining about a pair of shoes.  So there you have it, who's got 2 thumbs and is a complete materialistic bitch and needs to obviously downsize and take stock of what's really important?  This gal right here. *sigh*

1 comment:

  1. Awe shannon, its frustrating foresure! But just remember your birthday AND mothers day are just around the corner, and maybe your family will read this or hear you lol,and get your shoes for you! Good things come to those who wait xo

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